Lost in a beautifully sad day
Today I woke up so late—-almost 3:30pm. So late that I felt guilty for myself to have wasted such a beautiful day. It’s probably that I’d stayed up too late last night to create my 1st BLOG.
Where do we go from here (Madonna): To catch up the rest of the sunshine, I dressed up at once but, strange enough, I had no idea of where to go. I wanted to go somewhere but yes, I didn’t know where to go. Madonna’s song ‘…where do we go from here…’ went on and on in my mind. I felt sad. I felt lost. Lost in a place where I’m so familiar with.
I struggled a lot. I wanted to go somewhere but I was afraid to. I didn’t want to be alone. Not for the security reason, but … loneliness, I guess. Finally, I made up my mind to Yuen Long to look for the school that I’m going to as an oral examiner there on Tuesday. I went on the West Rail and waited for a long time for the 76K bus. I watched the sky turn from bright blue to navy.
Nighthawke (Edward Hopper): There weren’t many people. Not as crowded as in the city heart. I felt even more lonely as I went on my way. I asked a few people about the route. I was absolutely an alien there. I sat next to the bus-driver on the bus, watching the winding roads, big old trees in the front and passing by… I’d no idea of what would be ahead. I just knew, I was not supposed to be there. I didn’t belong to there.
Burn (Usher), Dry Your Eyes (The Streets): While I’m listening to these 2 songs on my way, I felt like I was back to Bognor, London, York…I suddenly wanted to leave this place. If I could be here, alone in this wicked Yuen Long, could I be somewhere far? Should I start a new life? I was so blank but I wanted to shed tears. I’m always sensational, emotional. Does this idea mean anything to my future. Would it be something serious. I don’t know…
It’s a beautiful sad day.
