as i’m reading on the road
i’m feeling like being strongly connected to somewhere
or on the contrary, disconnected.
seems like i’m getting into the heart of IT.
the heart of
someone’s past,
someone’s desire
someone’s dream
someone’s thought
i’m starting to think of planning a trip for my own-
TO PLAN or NOT TO PLAN
i’m not sure.
Everything flashes by
(’Everything will flow’ —suede)
people come people go
but once someone drops by…
someone you think who may stay, he goes and breaks your heart into pieces…
someone you think is a star gets down to kiss you…
someone you think is a passer-by, still leaves you, but he stays a little longer in your life…
someone you think is only an ordinary one hooks onto you and stays by your side the longest…
someone you think is a total mis-match, gets along great with you..
so…. who can tell?
but i’m just thinking. am i a total weird one in this ever-changing world who’s still searching for TRUE LOVE.
when you grow, you’re getting more and more stubborn and bound by your own way of thinking… in a way that it’s also hard to kick these bricks down and have feelings, pure and genuine feelings towards others…
worse of all. everything just comes so fast and people’s minds have been changing so much.
do we still need those so-called old-fashioned moral and values to judge and face LOVE.
do we have to change our attitudes in coping with such tremendous change of values.
does anyone still treasure the OLD-FASHIONED LOVE ?
TO CHANGE or TO UPHOLD
HOW CAN ONE STAND THE CHALLENGEs
what is the true meaning of having a religious life? does it simply mean going to church to worship GOD? how does it affect your daily habits, your life, your soul as a whole?
i’m sitting here reading the book, being so ‘myself’.
all these thoughts just flash by like lightnings striking my brain..
i’m ON THE ROAD- a road with myself alone… what’s ahead of me i’m not certain. but it feels like the MOST DISTANT COURSE, or else, THE LONGEST HOLIDAY (OF MY HEART) that i must go through and overcome the fears and worries in me, before i can see the road more clearly. it’s also inevitable that i’ve to get back to my inner self before carrying on my life with confidence.
upto now, sitting here, my mind wanders. i’m just a lost soul.
[6.00-10.10pm pacific coffee @ festival walk, 22nd march 2008]
